Sunset

 

Written By Monique Colette

One winter night to help me ease my pain, I wrote a poem about the type of love I wanted. It was the first time in years I had felt hope that I could find it. It was the night I finally let him go. I had finally had the courage to go online and look at his friends’ pictures and see him with his girlfriend. They seemed very happy together. I was the outsider, and I had been the outsider for two years. He shut me out and never let me back in. He went on with his life. And I was stuck mourning the past, unable to move on.

This one particular night, I accepted that he was with her, even though I had been seeing them together in my dreams for a solid year. I had known he was with her, but I never wanted to face the truth. I cried. We had never had a chance to build anything together. Everything burnt to the ground as quickly as we got together. For two years, I had been living in an empty castle of broken dreams and regret.

Without thinking about what I was going to write, I picked up a pen and a pad of paper and the words just poured out. It was all stream of consciousness. I didn’t even re-read it. I wrote it and stashed it away. I found it recently, and I read it. And I cried because I remembered how healing it felt to write about another man, another type of love from what I had experienced. I wrote this poem about my vision of true love. I remembered how what I wrote that night helped me move on from a love so deep, painful,  and transformative that it almost destroyed me.*

Sunset

Shred my soul

I will love again

Make me feel the light

Be the sun that shines upon my skin

You free me

You heal the broken pieces

I feel you

I love you

You tremble

under my touch 

You moan

my name under your breath

You break apart my fear

The moon shimmers on us

Pierce my heart

I feel you in my veins

Let my kiss heal you

The light illuminates the dark

The heat melts the ice

I want to love you

Make the rain wash away the hurt

Tear me apart so I can feel you

Stars fall upon us as our lips touch

Let the ruin bind us

Your love surrounds me

My body shivers when you grasp me

The sunset burns our skin

Say my name in the dark

My heart beats under you

Taste me

Taste my sweat

Feel my body rise and fall

Love me

Crave me

Heal me

Touch me in ways you’ve never touched before

I see the light in your soul and the scars on your heart

Hold me

Let the whole world spin

Surrender

Inside us a fire burns

Dive into the ocean

Never let me go

Let everything shatter until we see the sun

Let me be the air you breathe

Let the cups overflow

The thunder shakes us

You are everything I have dreamed

Shine your love upon me

Hold me and I will hold you

Promise I will never break again